The hardest thing for me to do in life is wait. And infertility is full of waiting. The waiting for an appointment, for your period, for the results of blood tests, the waiting room, waiting for the doctor, the list is endless. All capped off with the dreaded two week wait.
Waiting is an active process of doing nothing. It takes all of our conscious effort and it is exhausting. And yet, there is a part of me that believes that patience is power. That the doing of nothing, the actual process of waiting is not an absence of action; rather it is about perfect timing. It’s about really getting clear on the right time to act, for the right reasons and in a right thinking way. Infertility is be an incredible spiritual journey of exploring your relationship to patience, waiting and uncertainty. It can be a self enforced time of doing nothing. And for me it is like fire burning me to the ground. It consumes me and leaves room for nothing else. There is nothing left to do but be fully in it.
Burning with you.
Loving you from here,